Haiz.. My day sucks. Please tell me what to do. I'm so lost!
Today, during my 3hour lesson, my teacher wanted to split the class into 4 groups for our roleplay. It made up 20% of the total module i guess. So my teacher took out the name list and show it on the visualiser. Inititall, she wanted to split in a "reg. 1 to 5, 6 to 10" way. But later on, she changes her mind and decided to split in a "1,2,3,4 then all 1 in gp 1" way. Some of the classmates dont want. So lastly, she decided on drawing lots and started tearing and writing papers. I felt so indignant because she nv ask us to vote what we want. She just listen to a minority of classmates. So I told her she nv ask what we want. She retorted saying its what the majority of the class wants. So I ask those who wanted to draw lots to put up their hands. A few put up only. The teacher then keep on saying that what classES want is to draw lots. I didnt really catch what she says because I'm so irritated le. I felt that she is always very bias. From lesson 1 till now, she nv listen to some of us at all. That's why I felt so angry. So, I told her I stomachache and want to go toilet shit. N I walk off to the toilet and sit down at the toilet bowl trying to calm myself. Jesslyn and Jeanette then came. They told me that teacher say I disrespectful. I guess the teacher is really high in EQ. She nv fails to sweeten up her words when all she wanted to say is "she is rude". Afterall, I went back to the class and tolerate her sight and voice which makes me very pissed. Finally, the lesson ended.
I did not follow the rest for lunch as I need to go the bank. Marzuk accompany me. Then while waiting for the bus, we talk. He say he convinced me to apologise to the teacher. Then I dont know why I went to look her and apologise. I think she was a little shocked to see me. She just tell me her point of view. I kept quiet and listen to her. I cried because I feel so helpless. Whatever I say is wrong. Suddenly, I felt small. She ask me dont cry over such small matters. But she doesnt know why I cried. Do u? She was saying that she liked my out-spoken character. On the other hand, she told me that the moment I walked out, a classmate told her that "she is like that one". That change the impression of me. That I'm always so rude? How many times did I walk out after argument with teacher? Only this time. But some other times ago I did argue with teachers. But not everytime is my fault ok. Like this time round, nobody listen to me. Well, I apologised and left.
I asked Marzuk who said "she is like that one". He says he dont know. So i went to the foodcourt to ask the rests. To my dismay, it is one of my closest friend who said that. Wow.. How am I suppose to feel now? Thank You dearest friend. I nv tot you are the one who said tat.
So I went to the bank with Marzuk feeling everything negative you think I will feel. Haiz..
Im sorry for walking out. for being rude. everything is my fault. Please say something that will make me feel better. Thanks TG.

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